Showing posts with label suicidal thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label suicidal thoughts. Show all posts

Saturday, April 6, 2013

Rick Warren's Son, Matthew, Commits Suicide

..and I cry for Rick and his family.

During my post-fundamentalist Christianity and subsequent post-Christian life, I have been outspoken about Rick Warren's beliefs and message.  Actually, due to my fundamentalism, I was even against Rick while still a devout inerrant Bible believing believer.

All of that is meaningless.  Stupid life disagreements that have no place in this world when a son is lost to a father.

I have six children.  Most days, I love them dearly.  Losing one of them, especially to suicide, would devastate me to no end.  Every day, after my son's death, I would question every second I spent (or didn't spend) with my son.  I would go over every word I ever spoke (or didn't speak) to him.  I would remember every after-school program, every sporting event, every conference, every concert, every ballgame, every lunch date I missed and twist them into a list of indictable offenses of the worst kind.

I would weep.  And after the tears were gone, I would question everything of who I am as a father.

I ache for Rick Warren today.  Today, he and I are simply fathers.